Who Am I?
March 4, 2009 by Akemi Gaines
“Who am I?” is the central question in life. What is your answer to this question, and how is your understanding helping you in life?
This article first examines various levels of self identity. Then it goes deeper to explore what “we are spiritual beings” really means. (Photo by Lucas Janin)
Will the true YOU please step forward?
We define ourselves in various ways:
1. I am (my name).
2. I am (my work position, social status, etc.).
3. I am (my life experiences).
4. I am (my thoughts, or the thinking mind).
5. I am (my soul or spirit).
#1 is just a label. #2, like “I am a sales manager.” or “I am a mother.” is just the role you are playing at this time. It’s pretty easy to see these are not the real YOU.
Some people are invested in their experiences and believe they are the sum or the result of their life experiences. “I was abused as a child and so I am incapable of building a healthy relationship. This is me.” or “I am an American and so I live this way.” But I don’t think human life is like a physics experiment. We have free will that allows us to go outside what our experiences define.
#4 is big. Someone said, “I think therefore I am.” If you don’t embrace the idea of the soul, I guess this is how you define yourself. Pretty obviously, you know you are not just the body you can see and touch. There is something within that does the thinking – your mind. So you are the mind, or the combination of your body and mind. (If you think the mind is just a function of the brain, then the mind is part of the body – still, you define yourself as the body / mind.)
Then there are those who believe in #5. I use to think this way, too. Our essence is the soul, or the spirit, that currently resides in the physical body. The thinking mind is only a tool. And when we die, the soul moves on, to eventually have another incarnation.
The idea seemed to work until I experienced Ascension soul shift myself.
Soul shifts and the Self
As Akashic Record Reading specialist, I read people’s soul records. Most people live with one soul for the entirety of his or her life. Or, rather, the soul lives its whole incarnation.
However, there are those who go through soul shifts. When this is the case, I can count exactly how many souls have been involved, the characteristics of each soul, and when the shift happened. And as I wrote in that article, soul shifting itself is nothing new. All varieties of soul shifts except the Ascension soul shift have been known for some time.
- Ongoing soul shifts
- One-time soul shifts, or walk-ins, including:
1) Reinstatement soul shifts
2) Complete possessions
3) Placeholder soul shifts
4) Special cases such as Pleiadean soul shifts
5) Ascension soul shifts
In each case, we can take one of the two perspectives to the question “Who am I?”
- I am the originally intended soul that was meant for me at birth.
- I am the soul I have now.
With ongoing soul shifts, there is one soul that was the originally intended soul. So although it was in the body only part of the time, we can say this is who he or she was meant to be. Alternatively, we can also interpret this situation that whichever soul that is in the body at the given moment is the self – at the time.
Similarly, in reinstatement soul shifts, we can say the originally intended soul that gets “reinstated” is the real you even though another soul was residing in the body for a while. It’s also valid to say that, when the other soul was residing in the body, that was you.
Complete possessions are sad cases. The originally intended soul gets kicked out by a negative soul. When this happens, I have to say the new soul is the you because there is no way to reverse the process.
Placeholder soul shifts are like reinstatement soul shifts but the first soul is a positive soul. So again, you are the originally intended soul. Or you can say the soul you had at the time is the real you.
How Ascension soul shifts differ from other soul shifts
However, Ascension soul shifts are different. With Ascension soul shift, the first soul is the originally intended soul. And the second soul is also intended – the shift is orchestrated somehow.
The repeatedly asked question about Ascension soul shift is “Why does this have to happen? What happens to the first soul? What happens to my spiritual development that I have accomplished as my first soul through many lifetimes?”
I sensed there was something bigger or higher than the soul that is still an individual, the ME, that was orchestrating these soul shifts. These soul shifts were not some random take over. At least the second soul knew the first soul and what was going on. But what is this “bigger or higher” something?
Here is my current understanding as I figured by communicating with my Akashic Record Guides.
The Source, the energy, and the soul
First there was the Source, the Source of all energy. The whole, therefore perfect, energy. Then it split part of it to create individualized forms of itself. Basically, it wanted to play. It was hard to play as a single existence ever, so it split itself to be many existences.
For now, let’s call these split energies “X’s”.
Some X’s became stars and planets. Most other X’s became residents of these star systems. Then they traveled around. Eventually some came to Earth, which is just another creation.
To live in the physical bodies on Earth, X’s split part of themselves to form souls in much the same manner the Source split itself to be X’s. Perhaps most X’s split out just one soul and watched over how it goes.
The soul lived in one body. When the body was done, the soul crossed over to the other side for a temporary rest, and eventually came back to live another lifetime. This went on and on for millenniums of time. All the while the X of the soul was watching over its progress.
Ascension is the new game
Recently planet Earth and its residents decided to work out a new game plan. We have gone through plenty of lifetimes and saw the various different sides of life. We have done enough of the “learning by contrast” game. More and more of us are reaching the point that we can possibly reach as the existing soul. So we are going to change the matrix itself. We are going to do this Ascension.
Ascension is about increasing the vibration rate. For many of us, the souls we’ve had were good souls that were intended for each of us at birth, but they can go up only to a certain level of vibration rate. So our X’s decided to upgrade. Each X created another soul from itself and sent it to us. This is Ascension soul shift.
Because the new soul originates from the same X, it is the same type, same background group and training. It just vibrates higher and has no physical past life.
Meet X, your Higher Self
Now the issue of terminology. This is where things get sticky because it’s quite possible that person A uses the term to mean something different from what person B means with the same term.
For me, X is my Higher Self. My Higher Self came directly from the Source, and it infuses part of it to form my soul in much the same way the Source infused part of it to form my Higher Self. My Higher Self can create many souls if it wants.
It’s like making photocopies. Any number of souls can come from the Higher Self. Once the soul is created and incarnates in the physical body, it gets its own experiences. Like you can write memos on one of the photocopies. We’ve got too many scribbles on our copies (souls) that we decided to start anew with a fresh copy.
Who am I really?
So there are higher levels of answers to the first question, “Who am I?”
6. I am (my Higher Self).
7. I am God, the Source, or – just, I am.
Does this make sense to you? It does to me, so I concluded my communication with my guides.
A note in communication with spirit guides
If you are interested in trying this yourself, here is a brief cautionary note. Spirits use your existing frame of reference to give you ideas. So the analogy you get may well be different from mine.
Plus they are quite practical in their teaching. They know there are levels of understanding. Say, Newton’s law of gravity may or may not work in Einstein’s world, but if your understanding of physics is high school level (like most of us), they are not going to mention Einstein. They know that would just complicate things unnecessarily. So they tell you the law of gravity as Newton figured it out. If you work for NASA, on the other hand, you may get a different response. Both are, in a sense, “right” answers.
The answers I received make sense to me and so it’s good for me. For now. When my spirituality evolves further, I might get a new answer that may seem to contradict to what I know now. Just a possibility.
Ascension is a process to be one with God, or to be God
So the Ascension process promotes higher awareness of who we really are. We are not just our souls that goes through many lifetimes. We are our Higher Selves that are looking over all these experiences.
Further, we are the Source. We are God, the Creator. The split part is essentially the same in quality with the original. It’s a smaller individualized version, but like a piece of holograph, it has all the power and information of the original.
It gets really hard to “know” who I am at this level. It’s like trying to see my own nose. Not by the reflection on the mirror, but trying to see my nose itself. We are not quite capable of doing this. Likewise, after rigorous examination of who I am, seemingly ironically, I reach a point where I say, “I just am.” Everything and everyone are part of me, appearing to be different for the fun of it.
How do you identify yourself? Are you using the power that comes from realizing you are the Source?