I had a extremly bad awakening process when I was 21. It was bad in the sense that I had no idea what I was seeing. I lacked the understanding and ability to interpret. This drove me insane. To see the dark forces in people on a spiritual level my mind interpreted it as ‘demon’ and to see the light i saw ‘angels’. Random people would come up to me and have conversations I felt always had a hidden message or meaning. I worked at a gas station and held the door open for this guy and he liked my presense so much he offered my a $30,000 starting salary job – making 50 in two. I asked about benefits he said it takes a couple months to kick in but i’ll give it to you when you start. People were treating me different with this immense amount of energy I had inside me. Females were very attracted to me.

I had a drive to do something more. I spoke to everyone. I made someone cry with tears of joy. I also scared an old lady just by looking in her eyes (she jumped). She was a church going female I sensed.

I worked at a gas station and my manager said something to get me angry and I went inside and said “Today is not the day to get me mad” and walked out. Seconds later all the gas pumps stopped working, computers inside were bugging out and the fire alarm was going off. Things tasted different to me. I craved vegetables like some would crave a cheese burger. My love was endless, truly.

Other secret lightworkers tried to help me but I did not have the ability to listen so well. They tried so hard which I am eternally grateful and thankful for. Not truly knowing what I was going through I grew frustrated with the world and the people in it for not seeing what I saw. Sadly frustration lead to anger and confusion. Confusion lead to paranoia. Paranoia is the endall. I’m not sure what took place but something took control of my body because I said things and did things I dont remember. I remember the exact moment but they told me I said this while I remember getting up and doing something, ‘superhuman’ like. My voice also grew incredibly deeper.

I know now I am my own boss…i love the whole superhero thing..superman batman. We’ve been trained since we were young to remember…Like He-Man – we are the masters of our universe. Like superman…an alien pretending to be human.

I’ve always had the desire to fight but I cant fight without just cause. The rage I feel when someone has done something wrong to another is overwhelming. But it doesn’t feel like anger because anger clouds your mind. This feeling is passion. This passion allows me to focus very clearly. I learned that I am the anti-bully. I realize only the weak pick on the weak. I choose to stop them. I picked the smallest kid in school and made the choice to defend him from everybody. I seem to “work” better when it is in service to others. That was when I was 14 and I am 25 now and still remain friends with him. He is a light worker he just doesn’t know it…he wants to be a teacher though.

Another thing I remember from working at the gas station was my boss told me someone has been stealing the oil from outside and wanted to keep a look out. I feel I work better on command as well. So as I was working I felt my chakras roar and surge with energy but they were roaring and pulling me towards a specific person. This person was putting oil in his girlfriends car. I asked if he paid for it he said “Yea, i paid inside, ask Dominc”. I raido’ed inside and asked if he paid for the oil and he said yea. I said ok. I knew this was BS…I let him leave and stopped what I was doing to ask again in person to Dominic if he paid for the oil he said “No, I thought you said gas”.

I would also have ridiculously long conversations with people about there problems. I am convinced now that i had severly over active chakras especialy the crown. I started absorbing energy from the wind unknowingly because I liked to drive with my hand out the window and it felt good. Felt energetic.

This awakening happened when I met this female and we had great sex. It woke me up and every female I like on a soul level and have sex with I can read them and I read things about her that drove me to want to change the world for her. My love for her was endless. The impossible burden I willingly put on myself drove me pass the edge of sanity and into the realm of hallucinations.

When I would see a negative soul there eyes looked black and blood red to me. When a negative soul would talk to me on the phone there voice sounded like an animal. Phone would ring all the time with a disconnected call back number. I was working and saw this huge shadow fly across the pavement and I looked up and nothing was there. I drove home and saw the same shadow fly across the pavement with a dead bird outside the house. True paranoia filled my mind. Every negative seed was planted in my mind.

It drove me to a mental facility. I blacked out for the first three days as I was sedated and in the level of sedation I told the doctors that I was some ‘Universal Protector’ on a mission. I woke up and looked at this crayon board on the wall and it was filled with beautfil writings and drawings. I looked at one of the writings and it said “money was the root of all evil” with a arrow to the root of a flower. I came to realize I’ve been the only one in that room because they thought I was dangerous and I drew those pictures and wrote those words. The words on the board were my thoughts. The thing is I don’t even like to color and was never really good at it.

I was sedated for years. I felt I lost a piece of my heart because of the drugs I was giving to suppress my higher self. My experience was a blessing because I learned so much and met so many people. Many/All in the mental hospital are spiritually out of tune. The Buddha said to have anything you must loose everything.

Doctor thought I was schizophrenic with a severe case of bi-polar. When you go to a shrink dont tell him you see ‘angels’. Now im not schizophrenic with a moderate case of bi-polar. Which I came to agree with because I diagnosed myself as bi-polar when I was 16.

Now, I work construction and I look at all I have and at one point in time what I have came from my imagination. I believe I can read the ether or whatever you may call it. I just dont realize it. When I talk to people they have a problem and I’m able to tell them things about there personality that is causing the problem. I also ‘see’ the world for what it is and hear spiritual truth on tv, radio, people…sometimes even the wind when it blows at a specific time. I just pay attention to how it makes me feel. When I hear messages from tv or radio specific words sound different to me. They stand out and I feel myself interpreting them. I can look into someones eyes and look how spiritually evolved they or if they are troubled. A troubled or de-evolved soul will have trouble maintaining light so there eyes to me are not big and bright. For the de-evoled i see grey clouds in there eyes when the light reflects off of them.

I felt the need to write this because I’ve never told anyone about it before, my dark past of my first uncontrolled awakening. It is important to learn as much as possible so you can gain a better understanding of things to come. Someone people should also know is all you have to do is ask a question and you will get your answer. Variations of how the answer will come. Movie, book, friend, bill board. Universe talks through all means of interactive concept.

I went from being drugged like a zombie,having everybody tell me what I saw was not real, casting every seed of doubt possible and ballooning to 260 from the medication to be more fit now at 175 and having more of a direction and sense of purpose in life. Even on the medication my heart burned with a desire to be set free. I asked it to show me the way and it showed me what I need to read, eat, buy. I attribute all of my weight loss to mind over body techniques. Positive affirmations and the law of attraction. I learned the movie “The Secret” is extremely watered down.

My point is…any and everything is possible and this world will change because in order to change this world you have to change yourself to be the example. Realize you are an extension. You are source energy, with a personality.

we are all in a constant state of evolving, energy is only transferred never lost. only your spirit goes with you when you leave this clay body, so really what matters most is that we learn and grow. now what also matters is the evolution of the earth as it is a planet that we are so lucky to experience, so it is up to us not to destroy it and create a place for all other beings to come here to enjoy.

also i must add never limit God we are here to learn to see to touch to feel and we should always remember our souls purpose…in otherwords we must not forget to live life to the fullest. to never overlook all the creation and feelings we feel. to really know love is key to all things good.

life=birth and death
dream=sleep and walking
trance=dualistic and consciousness and enlightened awareness
death point=life and reality
reality=death point and existence
existence=reality and birth

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