What Do You Create If You Are Totally Free?
May 26, 2010 by Akemi
Hi, I know I haven’t been posting for a while, which is quite unusual. As you can see in the Archive, I’ve been posting at least once a week for more than two years.
I have been in a strange place — not physically, but energetically. It was like caught in an air pocket. Nothing was holding me down really. I was completely free to go anywhere. Yet I had no idea where to go or what to do. Life felt like unreal, as if watching a movie.
Have you had this experience? I think more and more people are getting caught in this strange air pocket as the Ascension progresses.
Before, we created out of need
Life is about creation. We incarnate in this physical world to create freely and joyously so that we may experience love and abundance in a tangible way. We create relationships, home, work, arts — even new lives.
The thing is that, so far, we usually created out of need or habit. We felt insecure by ourselves so we created relationships. The world felt harsh and even dangerous so we created safe and comfortable homes. We had to make our living so we created businesses and jobs.
Something is changing for some people. We are getting into a place where we don’t have particular needs.
I don’t mean I have tons of saving that I don’t need to work. But I know money comes along when I need it. Likewise, I am single, but I feel safe and secure by myself. In short, I am already content.
So what do you do when you don’t have needs?
We can still create. In fact, this is the best place to create from. It’s so much easier to start a new project when we don’t have to worry so much about money and other restrictions. And we know we have the best relationships and friendships when we are happy with ourselves.
But it does feel — strange. It’s new. There is no “drive”. It’s so easy to get lazy and sit where I am. In other words, I was getting a serious question from the Universe, “Okay, so what do you do when you don’t HAVE TO do anything? What do you CHOOSE to create? You are completely free to choose, you know.”
Have you asked these questions to yourself before? Try it. You may find a new aspect of yourself.
So here is my new creation. . .
After some lazy and at the same time tormenting time (the latter is totally self-inflicted), I decided to start a new blog. Well, actually two. I am starting a bilingual blog, one in English and one is Japanese, both about Akashic Records and related topics such as Spirit Guides, reincarnation, chakras, and more.
I am not quitting this blog Real Life Spirituality. This is where I discuss spirituality in the bigger context, such as spirituality in business and entrepreneurship, spiritual healing, and how I am doing personally in my spiritual and personal growth. I may be posting less often, but I promise I will post, so please don’t unsubscribe!
The blog at Akashic Record Reading, on the other hand, will be focused on Akashic Records. There may be some over-wrap with what I have written here, but plenty of new contents are coming, too.
For me, this is a fun experiment. I will be posting basically the same content in English and Japanese. Will the comments be different? I guess so. Depending on readers’ feedback, the introduction of each post will have to be different between the English and Japanese blogs. How will each grow up to be?
If you read Japanese or know someone who does, here is the link for the Japanese blog. (And while you are at it, please click on the button at the end of the post that has the red R. It helps to spread the news of this new blog. Thank you.)
This is also my attempt to nurture my root more. I’ve been in the US since 1995, and although English is my second language, it is my primary language now. I haven’t been writing nor reading Japanese for a long time. Will my brain produce something more interesting if I stimulate it with my first language?
We still have a long way to go in Ascension
We are so used to the “creation out of need” mode. It’s a lot easier — well, at least it feels easier — to create when we have needs. This is why people with particular needs, such as needs to care for small children or sick family members, become surprisingly strong.
That’s fine, but we do want to learn to motivate ourselves. To create just because.
Welcome to the world of no polarities. (Photo credit)
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I have felt this exact way for sooooo long, hence my lack of motivation to do anything with “my work.” I’ve finally decided to give it all up – no joke – and do what brings me joy, moment to moment. It is so strange, I don’t even know who I am anymore. Which feels like a GOOD thing, by the way, freeing!
Kelly,
Yep. I so agree. Let’s enjoy this
yeah, and another thing. I have NO connection to anything “spiritual” anymore. It’s like talking about the air or something – why talk about it? It just IS, but it is not more important than anything else. It’s like I don’t have the distinction anymore between spiritual and nonspiritual.
As an aside I have been feeling REALLY stressed for the last few weeks, no story around the stress, but extreme physical stress. Then I realized (or, it is not a realization, just a theory), but I theorized that it is not stress.. I think my vibration is just going through the roof. Anyway, cheers, and take care. K
Kelly,
Yes, that can happen. I’m not particularly interested in spirituality –it’s just part of my life. And I probably read a lot less “spiritual” books than someone who is “on the rise”, like I was a few years ago. Not that anyone is wrong, just we are all at a different place on different paths.
Im glad there is a topic on this. I too, lost interest in spirituality and my creative endeavors. It’s like I have less questions and nothing to say but just go on with it without hesitation. I sometimes had to drag myself out of my lazy mode and lack of motivations. Even my writings contain spelling/grammar errors I didn’t used to have. My physical discomforts come and go as if my body is also going through changes. Being in ‘uncharted territory’ is a bit scary but curious. I felt like there is this new kind of blank canvas to paint and inner power waiting to be unleashed. Enjoy the ride!
Akemi (and Kelly) – You have described exactly what i have been feeling too. Wonderful! I love the title of this post ‘What do you create when you are totally free?’ I don’t feel the drive anymore, but I do feel something pulling me along. It is more like being an agent, a part, of something larger. My interest in spiritual books and the occult is more just that now – an interest. I like to see how different people express things, and different energy teachings, and share what resonates. It is my part in the dance.
Actually, speaking of books, Adyashanti describes this so well in his recent book The End of the World…in the chapter about going to a wedding towards the end (it might even be the last chapter before the interview.) If you get the book, check it out…XOXO
WL,
Oh, I had to laugh about your mention on the spelling and grammar issues! For a while I thought it may be because I haven’t been blogging for a few weeks, but no, it’s just another symptoms of not caring about the conventions…
Enjoy your creation on the brand new white campus!
Lisa,
I guess you are describing the same feeling I had when I said “Life felt like a movie” . I can see I am still in the movie, but the main part of me shifted to the viewer mode — if this makes sense
I’m getting really slow on reading, but I will see if I can find that book you mention. Thank you.
Not sure why my comment didn’t come through, but I concur with the general feeling, the being part of something larger and the uncertainty of freedom. Stress is moving toward a point of stillness. Much Love and Respect, David /\
Oh that one posted just fine. Most likey I forgot to click submit yesterday or something silly like that. A couple more thoughts…
The reading slowness strikes a cord. I feel slow, yet I have a dozen books in progress at any given time. I dive in briefly and connect with the vibration of the author then have to put it down. It’s like food – tastes good but needs time to digest.
I took a dive into Adyashanti some months ago and was fortified by his perspective on our approach to the infinite. What I mainly took from that is the acknowledgement that fear, or even sheer terror is a natural first response. Diving into the abyss takes some guts.
Thanks to all of you who take the plunge and share the journey or who we really are :O) {{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}}
David,
Oh, here is another well read person. Good for you. Thanks for your comments.
Hi Akemi
That is funny, and yet not at all that I so resonate and feel too what you have described above.
I don’t even know where to start, but there is something within me that wants to pull back more. Instead of going out and building a speaking and writing career that way I imagined I would be by now, I have no motivation to do so at the moment.
As you know I am in the midst of the move to voluntary simplicity and I thought maybe this is throwing me off a bit as we are technically homeless at the moment, until our home is ready, but it is not. And I love not wanting or needing “stuff” – gosh is it ever freeing.
This goes back to the ideas you stated. I don’t officially work and yet I have faith that money will come when needed. It has been almost a year since I had any sort of real and significant paycheck and my life quality has not changed one bit in this last year. It is nothing short of a miracle as some may see it.
So it is good to hear you and many others are feeling these things too. I have a feeling we are told to rest and rejuvenate at this time, as the true purpose of our work is yet to come. For now, just rest – all will be clear soon enough…
Hi Akemi et al.,
I’ve been reading this blog now for a few months but this is the first time I’ve posted. Your message really resonated with me, too! The only way I can describe the feeling I’ve been having is “in between.” I’m so used to running here and there, reading this and that, doing SOMETHING out of necessity or not wanting to be lazy. But about 5 years ago, I started doing more out of motivation and excitement than obligation, so everything changed. And the last month or so, I’ve been motivated to do very little. This does bring up lots of feelings of laziness as I turn on the TV (again!) or play Backgammon (lol!)– but a few days ago my inner voice explained this lull more as a down time, in between the busy hustle and bustle of life. I like the way you put it as a time of rest. While this is a strange feeling for me, it is quite freeing, as I realize that I don’t always NEED to be doing– or that maybe resting is doing, and my life will pick back up in its time.
It is interesting, though, as I become more comfortable with this new style of creating, I feel less like I’m CHOOSING and more like I’m BEING CHOSEN. I go with what feels like the thing to do from moment to moment rather than making a specific plan to meet a goal. I feel like there’s a part of me, or rather that I’m a part of something much bigger, that is directing me in my choices. Ironically, this is the most free I’ve ever felt.
Thanks for your post!
steph
All,
Good to see other people creating freely.